I’ve pretty much had depression since I was a child. I had separation anxiety in elementary school and its basically followed me throughout my life in variant degrees. My first depressive episode was when I was 35 – I was hospitalized for 30 days. That was when I first began taking antidepressants and it’s been over 20 years that I’ve been on them. And then I just hit a wall – my doctor and I were discussing new options and changing them again. NeuroStar TMS Therapy came along at the perfect time because I started to feel like my options were running out. It felt like medication was putting a band-aid on my depression. I came to realize that this wasn’t my fault and I just needed help. I brought up the idea of NeuroStar TMS Therapy with my doctor and he said he would be offering it in the next few weeks so I knew this was meant for me. I had done my homework and learned all about it and I knew it was right for me.
It has been a wonderful experience – everyone has been wonderful and caring through this whole process. They genuinely want me to get better. After about a week and a half I really started to feel different. I felt like I was alive – like the veil had been taken off of my eyes. I could see clearly and colors were brighter. Every day it gets better and better. Even though life still happens it is so much easier to deal with things… I don’t want to crawl under a table anymore. My house is cleaner. I want to see people, and don’t want to be by myself like I used to. Everything looks and feels different – like before I was a robot going through the motions. I truly believe if it wasn’t for the meds I wouldn’t be functional at all. But the meds took me to that final level where I could function but I wasn’t living.