I’ve dealt with depression for a very long time. I believe my depression started as a kid after my parents divorced. For a long time I didn’t know what it felt like to be normal. I was always taken to therapists as a kid and always on different meds. It really started to get bad in high school. As more was expected of me as I grew up it got to be a struggle.
I was hospitalized for my depression at one point and I had suicidal thoughts. I never got to the point where I’d actually do something but I wanted to. For the past couple of years I had been seeing my therapist who I was very close to. Before I saw her, I was having trouble dealing with some health conditions and really not doing well.
I saw a Psychiatrist, was on a few different meds, and I was just feeling dull. Like I didn’t have feelings and was just “blah”. I felt more fatigued and after two years my therapist had found out about TMS from Dr. Perera. My therapist was trying to convince me to give it a shot and I was skeptical at first. Then, I began researching it.
I got to the point where it felt like it was one thing after another and I just felt stuck. I was seeing this same pattern for years and I finally decided to just give up. I was having suicidal thoughts again and I ended up calling my therapist while I was driving and told her I just couldn’t take it anymore. I just wanted it to end. It was either: go back to the hospital, or try NeuroStar TMS Therapy.
My stepdad has been a strong influence in my life and I am so thankful for him. He put out the effort to help me and has really pushed me to get TMS.
It really is a commitment to yourself… And what better commitment is here? TMS saved me. The support I got from my doctor, the assistants, my therapist, everything. TMS doesn’t just change you like that, it takes time. But now I’m awake and ready to take on anything. The old Jen would want to just hide, stay under my comforter all day, lay in bed – I didn’t want to deal with anything or anyone. I feel more than anything that NeuroStar TMS Therapy has given me the courage to move forward and take on each day. I have the energy and confidence now. It has opened my eyes.