Depression Story By: Rebacca

I am a middle aged woman who has been fighting depression for 15 years. It seems to have gotten worse. I was 24 years when my whole life was changed . I ended up having a hyst. done. I have always wanted a big family. And now I will never be able to. I used to look at babies and cry. I even have a nephew that was born at the same time this happened and I spent years regreating him. The depression has took over my life. I can not let any close to me. Afraid I will hurt them. I have had a wall up for so long, I do not know what is on the other side. I can not consentrate on anyhing. I can not sleep at night. I do not enjoy life like
I use to. I want to to enjoy life with someone. But because I can not let anyone close to me I am alone,. I sit in my house all alone day after day, night after night. Spend holidays alone.
I have gone to the dr for this, been put on medication after medication. Nothing seems to be working. I feel my head is about to explod and there is nothing I can do. I have gone to thearpy. I feel it helps for about 24 hours and back to very depressed. I need someone to let me know is there hope? Is there a way for me to climb to the top and see light and what is on the other side of this wall. I am tired of being alone. I want to share my life with someone. But I need to get my life under comntrol in order to do that. Can any one help me??TOday of all days is a bad day for me. I just want to go home and crawl intop bed and not get up

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2 Responses to “Rebacca’s Story”

  1. Brianne on March 18th, 2012 10:42 pm

    There is hope. It takes some time, but somewhere there will be something that will help you. You seem very active in finding the right treatment so have faith. The days will get better and easier and soon you will find true happiness again. Have you heard of the TMS therapy. Shock treatment is also a good therapy and you put to sleep during the procedure so it isn’t torturous. Keep the faith and I will pray for you.

  2. Marie on February 24th, 2016 11:40 am


    Has TMS worked for you? I hope it did. I am trying to decided if I want to try it. Medications and ECT have not worked for me in the past. I would love to hear your experience.



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