Depression Story By: mytwochildren

I was married for 24 years when my wife divorcd me.I was devestated and to this day cannot get over it.We have two children who were 8 and 11 at the time of the divorce.I was a very loving father.Unfortunately my wife brainwashed and turned the children against me.When my older son turned 18 he cut off all contact from me.My depression started when my wife filed for divorce.Before my depression I use to travel,jog,play with the kids,work,and enjoy being a family man.Now I have no interest in anything at all.I feel physically sick all the time as if I am dying.I feel very weak and tired all the time.I hate being awake and look foward to going to sleep at night,usually by 7 pm.I sleep 11 hours per night and have very vivid and disturbing dreams.I have tried so many different combinations of anti depressants and nothing works.I went for a TMS consultation but was told that medicare does not cover it.I cannot afford it.The cost is $8,000.I feel that I will never get better.On top of the depression I suffer from OCD and bad anxiety problems.I feel hopeless,worthless and scared all the time.I can only pray for a miracle.

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4 Responses to “mytwochildren’s Story”

  1. Brianne on March 18th, 2012 10:39 pm

    I know exactly how you feel. My TMS treatment is $15,000. My doctor said that a lot of cases the TMS company will actually loan you the money and if it is paid in 18 months it is interest free. He also told me that they will help you to get reimbursed. I just thought maybe this information can help you. I hope so!

  2. Adriana on May 6th, 2013 11:42 am

    Why won’t medicare pay? Is there a family member or several that you can approach to fund you? There must be something you can do: Ask for a discount, appeal in the papers for some good soul to fund you. Please work on this. I am having TMS next month. I will let you know if it works. Its taking all my savings away but after 30 years I owe it to myself to find a solution.

  3. matthew jensen on February 15th, 2015 8:04 pm

    Medicare does now cover it. i am on my 4th treatment day. Hope this information helps.

  4. Marie on February 24th, 2016 11:31 am


    Did the TMS work for you? I hope it did. I am trying to decided if I want to try it. Medications and ECT have not worked for me in the past. I would love to hear your experience.



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